想说木偶的爱情。Talk About Puppet Love

先谢谢赖小姐，谭小姐，张小姐和林先生好了，竟然让我预早拍到我今天想说的话。
I must thank Miss Lai, Tam, Teo and Mr. Lim for having been able to predict the future and shoot something I want to say today, a few days ago.

本人在和不知道第几任女朋友一起的时候，曾经去了教堂一年。本人后来和也不知道第几任女朋友分手后，她也去了教堂信了教。我相信我那堆不知道第几任信教的女朋友们一定也在她们相信的宗教里学到很多好的东西。我比较简单，能教人向善的，都是好宗教，不然政府说宗教信仰自由（我很少赞同政府）？
When I was with my nth girlfriend, I attended church for a year. When I broke up with my another nth girlfriend, she picked up Christianity too. I strongly believe all my christian ex girlfriends must have learnt a lot of good things from what they believe in. Things are more simple to me, I believe any religion is good as long as it leads people to the right directions. Or else, why does government say "freedom in beliefs" (I do not normally agree with the government)?

我听了很多遍的“给点时间自己，主会让你认识祂”，也听过很多次的“拜大伯公，大伯公会保佑你”。我今天也听说了“他不是信教的，和他分开吧。我们和他，妳选一个”。嗯，我想了很久。越想，眼睛张越大。
I have heard words like "give yourself some time, God will show you Himself" and "go bai bai, Dua Pek Gong will protect you". Today, I heard something new "He is not a Christian, break up with him. Us and him, you choose one". Hmm, so this is new and as I think more, my eyes go bigger and bigger.

判个好人死刑，原来不需要他做了什么，只要他不相信你相信的，就行了。
So it is not so hard to give a good person a death penalty. All you need to prove, is that he does not believe in what you believe. That is easy.

想到妳走了一段又一段的路，还真替妳觉得心痛。
I feel sorry for you for what you have been through.

妳的爱情，不被妳左右。
You do not own your love.

我接下来的女朋友们（如果有）和老婆（如果有），我恳求妳明白。
如果我说阿弥托佛，我恳求妳明白，至少我不会再杀蟑螂。
如果我穿纱笼到处跑，每天跪五次，我恳求你明白，至少我大腿内侧凉爽，不会再长廯。
如果我说主耶稣会打救妳，我恳求妳明白，至少妳一定跟我上天堂，可能还可以做天使。
To my future girlfriend(s)(if I have) and wife (if I can have), I hope you will understand.
If I say Amitabha, please understand, at least I won't kill cockroach no more.
If I wear sarung and kneel down 5 times a day, please understand, at least my inner thighs are dry, no more skin disease.
If I say Jesus will save you, please understand, at least you can go to heaven with me, who knows, be angels?

如果真有神，请妳相信，祂一定会让他们明白。
If there is God, please believe, He will make them understand.

我没有不赞成任何好的宗教，谢谢。
I do not have anything against any religion, thank you.

文化大汇演。Cultural Performance

19-09-2009，我们没有帮妹妹和展斌庆祝生日因为老大参赛。
19-09-2009, we had to ignore my sister and Eddy's birthday because Christopher had a competition.

久违的老朋友们当起了这场赛事的评审。很高兴再见。
Old friends from K.L. were judges for the competition. What a great feeling to have met again.

老大不负众望，领导只有大约300名学生的善牧小学（我的母校）夺得了全场特优奖和特别奖。第一次看到胜出却不会大喊的小孩。
Good shepherd (a school consists of only around 300 students), led by my brother, won it. There is something worth mentioning, kids did not even shout when they were announced as champion.

生日快乐，小妹。Happy Birthday, My Dear Sister

虽然妳肥，可是也好，好料妳会给我吃。
虽然妳烦，可是也好，有个人会时常提醒我。
虽然妳懒，可是也好，至少我不是唯一一个这样。
所以我昨晚吃了妳的炸鸡。
所以我昨天有记得买礼物给妳。
所以我今天还是把晒衣服的工作留给妳，真爽。
生日快乐，小妹。

You know you are fat but it's okay, you may leave all nice food to me.
You know you are annoying but it's okay, there's always someone to remind me.
You know you are lazy but it's okay, at least I am not the only one.
That's why I ate your KFC last night.
That's why I remember to buy you a present.
That's why I still let you hang all the clothes yourself.
Happy birthday, my dear sister.
You know I love you.

宝贝，你不明白。Baby, You Don't Understand.

我不知道刚才跟在身后的是不是你。
I am not sure if that was you.

我已不能再想，也不能这样下去。
I can't take this anymore. I can't go on living like this.

我在镜子里的那一边，仿佛看见自己报复你的念头。
Through the reflection, a fleeting thought of revenge crosses my mind.

她不知道，酒真能乱性。
She hasn't sensed that, has she?

我让她放松心情，
As I allow her to ease her mind,

而自己就在镜子前细细品尝被你折磨后的自己。
I stare deeply at the tortured product you made out of me.

今晚，我要爱自己，我也要恨你。
Tonight, I will love myself and I will hate you.

我恨你把我当玩具，恨你不能接受我是我自己。
I despise how you made a puppet out of me. I despise how you cannot accept me for who I am.

而我对你的包容，凄惨得美丽。
Forgiveness seems pathetically beautiful,

多么美丽。
breathtakingly breautiful.

你一定想不到，
You could have never guessed,

她会是我报复你的武器。
She - would be my ultimate weapon of revenge.

我把浴袍穿上。
As I put on my bathrobe,

深深地吸了一口气。
And take in a deep breath,

邪恶的香味，还在空气里飘来绕去。
The scent of sweet revenge hangs densely in the air.

走出去，她正好打算休息。
She was about to rest herself.

亲爱的，对不起。
Sorry my dear, I have to do this.

宝贝，要背叛你，轻而易举。
Baby, I never wanted to go this far but you pushed me here.

班哲民。巴顿。Benjamin Button

请替我记得我爱过妳，只因有天我会忘记。
Please remember for me that I loved you, for someday I will forget who.

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放手。Let Go

如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己。

09年不懂第几单。My Happening 09 So Far

本来的计划是这样的。29号晚上帮Sylvia和小John庆生，30号拍国庆系列，31号轻轻松松过一天。我只完成了29号。30号，我被切了！
My initial plan for the last two days of August was to celebrate Sylvia and John's birthday parties on the 29th, had a shooting session on the 30th and take a whole day break on the 31st. Well, I only managed to complete my 29th. On the 30th, I got admitted into hospital.

是的，我被切了，整条被切掉了。我30号早上被送入医院（救护车在途中死机三次），医生们诊断我那条涨太大也已经发炎了，必须被切掉。元子和我妹来向我那条说再见后，我就被推入手术房。醒来的时候，我摸了那里一下。嗯，有伤口，是被切了。从此以后，我不再完整。再见了，我那条盲肠。
Yes, they chopped it off, a part I never shared with anyone else (seriously I never showed it to any girl, not to mention boy of course). the ambulance that sent me to the hospital broke down 3 times by the way. So all doctors said it's becoming too big and started to rot, I was sent to surgery room right after Horace and my sister said bye to my gonna-go-part. I touched myself first thing when I woke up. Yea, it,s gone. From now on, I will not feel complete anymore. Good bye, my appendix.